long hiatus

one of my longest hiatus ever. actually I'm not even sure if there's anyone drop by my blog to read my post. perhaps if anyone is reading this, drop me a comment to let me know? well, I decided to write today's post as part of my 'documentary' for what had happened recently and about my feelings.

I have been away from hometown for 2 years for studies. now I have graduated, convocation is over too. it's been 5 months that I'm jobless, doing nothing at all. I felt I have wasted a lot of times, felt useless sometimes, wanted to do something meaningful but it's limited due to my situation. although people always say hardship is nothing if you are determine to accomplish something. yes, it's true. but reality strikes, the world is real.

this post is gonna be a bit messy, here and there. cause I just type out what I thought of at the moment. well, maybe I will reorganize it afterwards.

I have always wanted to achieve things in life. the Chinese have a proverb for it "心有余而力不足" which means beyond my grasp. sometimes I just wish that a 伯乐 will appear in my life. sorry I don't know what's the English word for 伯乐. tried to google it but the translation is not appropriate. having a 伯乐, there's someone to train and guide me of what I love to do.

but yea, currently I'm not clear and not sure of what I want to do. there's a big possibilities that I might continue studying next year but in a totally different course. I don't wanna state the reason publicly, friends who are close to me, you may ask me personally.

thoughts are getting messier, I am not even good at expressing myself.

probably another post next time.

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

wisdom-driven passion

I'm suppose to do revision for tomorrow's final test but here I am, updating my blog.

even though I know I shouldn't but I thought this would be worth blogging.

lately I've been doing devotion on Pastor Kevin's devotion material - 365. been reading it for 2 weeks and I must say it is my favourite one so far. I've listen to his teachings and sharing a lot of times and I really love it.

sometimes people says that things are overrated but here I am to say that the 'awesome-ness' of Pastor Kevin is really not overrated. a lot of time I find his teaching is very relevant, very real and it is something that happens in the modern days.

I'm not trying to be bias or discriminate, but at times I find speaker preaching things that are hard for me to relate. yes, things that they share are true and inspiring. but all those happened in the past. well of course it is not wrong to use the past example, but it will be more relevant if they could relate on something that happens today.

and once again, I'm not judging anyone. sometimes when I attend church service, I think the congregation are drawn and drag by the speaker. they give respond to the speaker for the sake of not embarrassing the speaker. the congregation clap hands and laugh at certain jokes just to keep the whole service not dead. of course it is not totally wrong to do so, because by doing so we are partially giving support to the speaker. but let me be clear, my point is: are you doing all these actions because you really agree with it or you just do it because it became a nature, a routine to you?

well, back to Pastor Kevin. today, through his devotion book I've learned to have wisdom-driven passion. we ought to know the reason why we want to do something and find a balance in all that we do. know that:

Passion + Wisdom = A mansion.

Passion - Wisdom = A hut.

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

express update

I admit, I didn't update my blog as often as I thought I would.

am caught in the season of hectic. can't believe 3 more weeks till this crazy term come to an end.

it's been insane and still will be for the next 3 weeks.

transition has never been easy.

hopefully I survive these 3 weeks.

will be going 2nd internship next month, October.

I miss home, a lot. because I know to be home means I'm away of all the hectic-ness.

I'm tired. physically, mentally and spiritually. I'm tired of being tired. but no worries, I'm not giving up.

Don't Lose Heart!

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

Feb

Can you believe that the first month of 2012 is over!!??

It's been a good month for me as I was back to hometown for CNY and really enjoy myself a lot. A lot of times I've heard people says that how they wish time could pause for a while so that they can enjoy more what they are doing. It's true, especially when you are having a whale of a time with the love one.

Stepping into February, so far so good. I love February which I don't know why. Perhaps it is a short month? Or it is due to Valentine? Or it is because it's my birthday? *hint hint* =)

Last night, the K's sisters went over my place and we had some chat. I date them for birthday dinner on next week and they asked what gift I want for my birthday. I seriously no idea what should I get. I used to do a wishlist and post it publicly but I don't do it anymore now cause it seems very materialistic.

Now I still have wishlist, just that I don't post it publicly and doing it like advertisement (sounds so holy-boly). However, I'm actually hoping to get myself a smartphone though. I would not ask others to give it to me as a birthday gift cause it's too expensive. I rather work and earn some allowance to buy it myself, in that way I would appreciate the phone more as well.

Gift. Hmm.... Everyone love receiving gift isn't it? I love it too especially that moment you going to unwrap it, feeling astonish for not knowing what is it inside. And I guess that's one of the reason why I like to wrap a gift nicely before giving out to someone. It's like an enlightening medicine for the soul :)

Oh well, I think I have to brain storm these 2 days on what should I get for my BIG 19 (",)

happy reading <3

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

it's NYE!

okay I know my topic got nothing to do with my post, you can kill me.

2011 is coming to an end very soon.

it's been an eventful year for myself.

did lots of first-time thing that you usually would not do if you are under 18.

leant a lot of things in terms of skill, knowledge and also learning from other's perspective.

2012 is approaching, I actually do not believe that it is the end of the world.

there are still many things for everyone of us to explore.

life must be something more than what we are doing daily.

there's a few things I wanna achieve in the coming year.

hoping to get some gadgets as well, perhaps 1 gadgets I would be satisfied.

 Happy New Year!

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

ponder on

Sometimes how do you consider what you are doing is right or wrong?


Is there always black and white in everything? 

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

2 or 3

They say Two is better than one

Some say three is a crowd

But I say three is happiness

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

礼物

好久没收到礼物了，几乎都快把收礼物的那个喜感给忘了。

其实渐渐发现，人随着年纪的增长，收礼物的次数也慢慢地减少了。

还记得那些年，每当我收到礼物时都终是好兴奋。嘴巴会不知觉地往上扬，心里好高兴。就因为这份喜悦，我好喜欢送别人礼物。看到别人开心，自己也会不由自主地替他人高兴。

 使 徒 行 传 20:35 "......施 比 受 更 为 有 福。"

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

一个人

在这儿生活, 习惯了一个人的步伐. 做任何事情都不需要交代, 不需要顾虑其他人的感受或想法.


的确, 一个人赛跑可以跑地很快. 但, 却需要有个伴来完成比赛.


yours sincerely, franfranfranny

tumblr?

nowadays people don’t blog their on feelings or thoughts that much anymore aye? ever since the existent of tumblr, less and less people update their blogspot account anymore. like what Jamie said, somehow people nowadays reblog a lot random post on tumblr but not writing out their own thoughts anymore.

the social network is getting sick.

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

transition.

the earth is turning every second.

so does the world is changing and it wont stop because you can't follow up.

people are changing constantly.

transition is never easy but it will make you grow strong.

be courageous for everyday. do not give up easily as your future is prepare by your past.

Dear future,

I hope you dont destroy my feelings and that you consider looking at things from every angle and perspective, just as i would do to you. please notice that i not only make one mistake, but i also learn from them and create wonderful things called lesson. remember that im in your hands, and if you drop me ill break if im ever not myself. remind me that im a truly beautiful person inside and out. youre the future, when will you come my way? i do not know, but what i do know is that
"SOMEDAY" WILL SOON BECOME TODAY.

love, fran (:


PS: grab this from meow. I dont wrote or own it.

I Love Daphkisses.com

I LOVE DAPHKISSES.COM BECAUSE SHE IS THE WAY SHE IS. No one on earth is the same like her.  And I look up to her where she is brave to express out her feelings despite any situation.


Besides, although she is just older than me 1 year, but she could afford her on pocket money to buy things that she need and life's expenses which I believe a lot people who are same age like her can't do it yet.


In addition, she loves Jay Chou whom happen to be favorite singer also! I said this because not everyone agree Jay Chou's talent. Certain people thinks that Jay Chou make money by his look or fame. But to a real fans of Jay Chou, we all knew that he make money by his talent.


In a nutshell, Daphne Charice portrays life in her own way instead of walking behind people's shadow. She's not afraid to express what she loves or what she hates. Moreover, young people should learn to find own pocket money just like what Daphne did instead of thinking that it is compulsory for parents to give them pocket money.

you may check out her daily blog post here: http://www.daphkisses.com
or follow her twitter: https://twitter.com/daphkisses

Surviving

it's been such a long silence at my blog here since I last post about my thoughts or things about myself.

life been hard so far for year 2011, entering the third month of the year, nothing fascinated besides celebrating my BIG 1 8. apart from that, currently experiencing transition which I could barely fit in.

so many big and small things transpired around, have to catch up with rather than not knowing anything.

I'm learning to be contented even with the little things. in addition, I'm learning to be more tolerate and patient towards people and in handling things.

there are so many things I wanna write on here but it's just not appropriate. find me if you know more personally. I can't promise I will tell you everything cause that depends on our relationship. I'm not trying to build a wall, but I believe everyone else would do the same. it's like you wouldn't tell me everything that you tell your bestie, just part of it. so yeah, it's the same here.

thoughts

Have you ever felt that you are left out?


Have you ever felt that your efforts are not being appreciated?


Have you ever felt that why on earth am I here?


Have you ever felt that why others can just have that determination to achieve things yet we just don't have?


Have you ever felt that the world is not fair?


Have you ever felt that life is unfair?


Have you ever felt that God is unfair?


Have you ever thought of giving up everything that you don't fancy and do things you like?


Have you ever thought of life can fast forward?


Is life worth living with the life you having now?

mother's day sharing

an awesome mother's day sharing by sister Winifred Heron.

http://www.door-of-hope.org/wp-content/uploads/sermons/2010-05-09-Wini-Heron.mp3

Wini's family

doze off

I wish I can hop into a fluffy bunch of pillow and a bed covered with silk-made bed sheet now.

nothing feels better than taking a long break when you're exhausted.

and and annnnnnd I want rainy days.

so I could open my window, listen to the rain drops and just dozed off.

hide in my soft blanket and sleep like there's no tomorrow =)))))

bungee jump

 

this is what I wanna do now xDDDDD

oh by the way, I've tried flying fox and wanna do it again =)

so there goes my wish list with added item: 

                  ( ) bungee jump, parachute & any other extreme sport ((((:

If by Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master,
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!