long hiatus

one of my longest hiatus ever. actually I'm not even sure if there's anyone drop by my blog to read my post. perhaps if anyone is reading this, drop me a comment to let me know? well, I decided to write today's post as part of my 'documentary' for what had happened recently and about my feelings.

I have been away from hometown for 2 years for studies. now I have graduated, convocation is over too. it's been 5 months that I'm jobless, doing nothing at all. I felt I have wasted a lot of times, felt useless sometimes, wanted to do something meaningful but it's limited due to my situation. although people always say hardship is nothing if you are determine to accomplish something. yes, it's true. but reality strikes, the world is real.

this post is gonna be a bit messy, here and there. cause I just type out what I thought of at the moment. well, maybe I will reorganize it afterwards.

I have always wanted to achieve things in life. the Chinese have a proverb for it "心有余而力不足" which means beyond my grasp. sometimes I just wish that a 伯乐 will appear in my life. sorry I don't know what's the English word for 伯乐. tried to google it but the translation is not appropriate. having a 伯乐, there's someone to train and guide me of what I love to do.

but yea, currently I'm not clear and not sure of what I want to do. there's a big possibilities that I might continue studying next year but in a totally different course. I don't wanna state the reason publicly, friends who are close to me, you may ask me personally.

thoughts are getting messier, I am not even good at expressing myself.

probably another post next time.

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

wisdom-driven passion

I'm suppose to do revision for tomorrow's final test but here I am, updating my blog.

even though I know I shouldn't but I thought this would be worth blogging.

lately I've been doing devotion on Pastor Kevin's devotion material - 365. been reading it for 2 weeks and I must say it is my favourite one so far. I've listen to his teachings and sharing a lot of times and I really love it.

sometimes people says that things are overrated but here I am to say that the 'awesome-ness' of Pastor Kevin is really not overrated. a lot of time I find his teaching is very relevant, very real and it is something that happens in the modern days.

I'm not trying to be bias or discriminate, but at times I find speaker preaching things that are hard for me to relate. yes, things that they share are true and inspiring. but all those happened in the past. well of course it is not wrong to use the past example, but it will be more relevant if they could relate on something that happens today.

and once again, I'm not judging anyone. sometimes when I attend church service, I think the congregation are drawn and drag by the speaker. they give respond to the speaker for the sake of not embarrassing the speaker. the congregation clap hands and laugh at certain jokes just to keep the whole service not dead. of course it is not totally wrong to do so, because by doing so we are partially giving support to the speaker. but let me be clear, my point is: are you doing all these actions because you really agree with it or you just do it because it became a nature, a routine to you?

well, back to Pastor Kevin. today, through his devotion book I've learned to have wisdom-driven passion. we ought to know the reason why we want to do something and find a balance in all that we do. know that:

Passion + Wisdom = A mansion.

Passion - Wisdom = A hut.

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

express update

I admit, I didn't update my blog as often as I thought I would.

am caught in the season of hectic. can't believe 3 more weeks till this crazy term come to an end.

it's been insane and still will be for the next 3 weeks.

transition has never been easy.

hopefully I survive these 3 weeks.

will be going 2nd internship next month, October.

I miss home, a lot. because I know to be home means I'm away of all the hectic-ness.

I'm tired. physically, mentally and spiritually. I'm tired of being tired. but no worries, I'm not giving up.

Don't Lose Heart!

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

3 months at East

it's been a long silence here.

I think most of my friends and family knew that I was back to the east for 3 months internship. it's been filled with joy and excitement. not so much of sorrow but I would say tiredness.

working in the hotel line definitely requires some stamina for the long working hours, especially working in the kitchen. during my training in the kitchen really challenge my physical strength a lot. I still remember vividly I almost pass out on the first day of my work in the kitchen. fortunately my chef saw it, otherwise I would really faint and fall. I didn't tell many people about this cause I think it's not something proud to share of, but now since the case is a past event, I don't mind telling.

eventhough now the whole internship is over, when people ask me whether I like studying or working, I still can't tell the answer. but I really enjoyed and cherish when I was in pastry kitchen, I learnt a lot there compare to other kitchen that I went. I specially wanna thank Joyce, she was somehow like my mentor when I was in pastry kitchen. she taught me a lot on skills and share the recipes to me, it was a blessing to me for having her as my so-called-mentor.

besides all these, I'm really glad I chose to go back my hometown as the place for my internship. truly, home is where the heart is. the convenienvy and comfortability at home is unbeatable. on the first day of my 3pm-11pm shift, dad actually stay up and waited me to be home. not to forget, mum always supply my wants and needs. on my off day, mum would actually bring me for some nice meal. totally appreciate that! in addition, on the day I fly back here to KL, dad came home from Keningau the night before. he woke up early morning to buy ingredients and cooked soup for me cause he knew both sis and I love to drink home-cooked soup.

on the other hand, I also get to hang out and meet up my KK peeps. they made my life filled with so much joy and laughter. I truly had a wonderful time at KK. and one more important thing is I get to eat all the food I craved for! for your info, I made a list of food that I wanted to eat before I was back to KK. all these would only happen if I'm home <3

PS: pictures coming up on my facebook.


yours sincerely, franfranfranny

Feb

Can you believe that the first month of 2012 is over!!??

It's been a good month for me as I was back to hometown for CNY and really enjoy myself a lot. A lot of times I've heard people says that how they wish time could pause for a while so that they can enjoy more what they are doing. It's true, especially when you are having a whale of a time with the love one.

Stepping into February, so far so good. I love February which I don't know why. Perhaps it is a short month? Or it is due to Valentine? Or it is because it's my birthday? *hint hint* =)

Last night, the K's sisters went over my place and we had some chat. I date them for birthday dinner on next week and they asked what gift I want for my birthday. I seriously no idea what should I get. I used to do a wishlist and post it publicly but I don't do it anymore now cause it seems very materialistic.

Now I still have wishlist, just that I don't post it publicly and doing it like advertisement (sounds so holy-boly). However, I'm actually hoping to get myself a smartphone though. I would not ask others to give it to me as a birthday gift cause it's too expensive. I rather work and earn some allowance to buy it myself, in that way I would appreciate the phone more as well.

Gift. Hmm.... Everyone love receiving gift isn't it? I love it too especially that moment you going to unwrap it, feeling astonish for not knowing what is it inside. And I guess that's one of the reason why I like to wrap a gift nicely before giving out to someone. It's like an enlightening medicine for the soul :)

Oh well, I think I have to brain storm these 2 days on what should I get for my BIG 19 (",)

happy reading <3

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

it's NYE!

okay I know my topic got nothing to do with my post, you can kill me.

2011 is coming to an end very soon.

it's been an eventful year for myself.

did lots of first-time thing that you usually would not do if you are under 18.

leant a lot of things in terms of skill, knowledge and also learning from other's perspective.

2012 is approaching, I actually do not believe that it is the end of the world.

there are still many things for everyone of us to explore.

life must be something more than what we are doing daily.

there's a few things I wanna achieve in the coming year.

hoping to get some gadgets as well, perhaps 1 gadgets I would be satisfied.

 Happy New Year!

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

:)

when life gives you lemon, make a lemonade out of it!

and most importantly, treat it with a smile :)

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

goodbye November

December coming soon in 1 hour and 30 minutes.
I really hope December will treat me well as I always love December because it is holiday and Christmas season.
this year a bit more different, it will also be the month I'm going home for 2 weeks of holiday.

November was a busy month. Cope with sooooo many things that I didn't realize it past through so fast. And when I realize, it's already the last day.

2012 will be a good year I hope.

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

2 or 3

They say Two is better than one

Some say three is a crowd

But I say three is happiness

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

忙碌

忙。

累。

疲惫。

除了用这些字来形, 还是累。

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

一个人

在这儿生活, 习惯了一个人的步伐. 做任何事情都不需要交代, 不需要顾虑其他人的感受或想法.


的确, 一个人赛跑可以跑地很快. 但, 却需要有个伴来完成比赛.


yours sincerely, franfranfranny

PJ : V2.0

last Sunday I visited City Harvest Church, KL. was invited by Caleb. the most productive day of the week as it was my first week at KL and I was really bored till I rot at home. so yeah, get to meet a few KK-ians such as Frances, Alvin and Jason. after service Caleb even brought me to Meeples for board games together with Sylvia. also tried Snowflakes for the very first time.


this Sunday, I get to visit Acts Church and had the opportunity their cell group which they call it Homes. the sharing part and atmosphere is pretty alike with what I used to had back at KK. easy to fit in as they all are really nice and friendly. by the way, this week Acts had their service at Sunway Convention center. not my first time to be at that place, few years back I attended Planetshakers Conference at the same place. 


this weekend I've been listening a few sharing that are related to faithfulness. well, the topic mean a lot to me right now. it's like something very close to my heart right now for my transition.


I must say that I decided to study here at Taylor's, it takes a lot of courage and determination. I have to give up my comfort zone back at home, I got to learn life of being independent. my church, my family, my friends and even my car. though it's not like my car at all, I share with my brother, but still it is part of me. thinking back, I really don't know what causes me to make the decision to study here at KL and leave everything else and travel alone to start a new journey.


life at here is hectic, culture are different and even lifestyle and perspective towards things are pretty different. of course, there are times where I wished so much that I can be back to KK being in my comfort zone. however, once again I reminded myself the resolute I had at the very first which placed me where I am now. there are times where tears are welling up my eyes, but it is faith that keeps me going on.


it took a big step of faith to make decision that you aren't sure about. and it takes faithfulness to be bold and continue the unsure journey.


yours sincerely, franfranfranny

PJ : V1.0

it's already more than a week since I arrived at KL here for studies. well, to be accurate it's Petaling Jaya. and for those who's interested to know where and what I studying about, I'm taking Diploma in Culinary Arts at Taylor's.

so yeap, that's enough for the intro part. I'll get into some activities that I've done so far and things that I've experienced.

the first day I arrive here and I've moved into my room. it's not a temporary one, it will be permanent till there's a reason I need to move out. so far nothing to grumble about and somehow I kinda like it. well, is just a normal room so don't imagine for an extravagant one.

went for groceries shopping. bought those little but important things. sometimes we do not realize how much we rely on some little thing so much, yet without it things will be not convenient. things are somehow organized in my room which I like it cause it's like my room and I know where's everything.

well, some people might think that back at home we have our own room too. however, it's different. your siblings or parents would go in and borrow your stuff. sometimes they do not return and you kept searching all over. but here everything is on my own, no one will come in to borrow or grab it away.

besides, over here, your room is like your house. you study, sleep, iron cloth and eat in your own room. and even everything that belong to yours, you got to keep it inside your room. no tv, no gas stove, no oven, no microwave and no maid like what you have back at your home. life is all about yourself and everything you're on your own.

back at home, you need to inform parents whenever you go out. at here, you don't need to and you actually got no one that you need to inform when you go out. pretty much like you're going a training camp individually.

on the other hand, it was my second day over here and I've experienced power failure which is a normal thing at KK but abnormal over here. so yea, I've to climb the staircase all the way up to my unit.

I've also met Mich, Soo and Kim. all of them are my KK peeps. it's rare for me able to meet Mich and Kim here at KL especially it was only my first week here. a lot people knew about the Bersih thing that's going on at KL, somehow it affected the whole Selangor and I heard Sabah too. I went out last Friday to have dinner with Kim and when I walk out of the mall and wanted to take a cab home, gosh! it's the worst traffic congestion I've ever seen so far. just within a week, I've experienced things that KL people rarely experience.

that's all for now, will update again.

PS: a few pictures of my life here is available at my facebook.

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

tumblr?

nowadays people don’t blog their on feelings or thoughts that much anymore aye? ever since the existent of tumblr, less and less people update their blogspot account anymore. like what Jamie said, somehow people nowadays reblog a lot random post on tumblr but not writing out their own thoughts anymore.

the social network is getting sick.

yours sincerely, franfranfranny

counting down

18 days to go...


mix feelings 

Surviving

it's been such a long silence at my blog here since I last post about my thoughts or things about myself.

life been hard so far for year 2011, entering the third month of the year, nothing fascinated besides celebrating my BIG 1 8. apart from that, currently experiencing transition which I could barely fit in.

so many big and small things transpired around, have to catch up with rather than not knowing anything.

I'm learning to be contented even with the little things. in addition, I'm learning to be more tolerate and patient towards people and in handling things.

there are so many things I wanna write on here but it's just not appropriate. find me if you know more personally. I can't promise I will tell you everything cause that depends on our relationship. I'm not trying to build a wall, but I believe everyone else would do the same. it's like you wouldn't tell me everything that you tell your bestie, just part of it. so yeah, it's the same here.

First post of 2011

It's been such a long time I didn't post anything here. I am more active in tumblr now.

First month of 2011 has been eventful to me. So many things happened and I felt like kinda left behind on things that are transpiring. Anyway, hopefully the following months I can suit in 2011 better and enjoy it instead of feeling suffering.

By the way, I've chopped off my hair on the second day of 2011. Hope to dye it soon.

FYI, I've removed my wish list. Ask me personally if want to know why.

Just a quick update of myself. Check out my facebook or tumblr to know about my recent update.

future studies

I wish to study at oversea after my SPM.

but not sure which course yet...

probably event planner / mass com / PA / tourism

and and and I wanna study at UK or Australia!!!!!!!

those places are really breath-taking 

but had to score well to get scholar =(((((

< all the best to myself! >

( ) score well in SPM - to get scholar and study at oversea

caught in love

yes, he's my new love. my new obsession. 

=))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

btw, he's a Christian!

*thumbs up*

oh dear, I'm dreaming like a bitchy girl. haha

but who cares, as long as I love him. xD

so here goes my add-on wishlist:

( ) a birthday party with Vanness

yeah, I know it sounds ridiculous.

but hey, have you ever watch my super sixteen?

that tv show rocks!

and the birthday boy or girl wanna-be got a really a.w.e.s.o.m.e partyyyy!!

some of them really invite singer or artist to perform on thier party man!

I wish I could invite Vanness although is kinda hard.

and and and the birthday boy or girl usually get a new car from thier parents too!

dreams: ( ) get the latest model Land Rover - Discovery

w705

(x) phone

thanks to my dad =)))))))))))

and I can't believe I've chosen pink! I used to dislike pink, but I picked this colour cause I think seldom people own this colour of w705