one of my longest hiatus ever. actually I'm not even sure if there's anyone drop by my blog to read my post. perhaps if anyone is reading this, drop me a comment to let me know? well, I decided to write today's post as part of my 'documentary' for what had happened recently and about my feelings.
I have been away from hometown for 2 years for studies. now I have graduated, convocation is over too. it's been 5 months that I'm jobless, doing nothing at all. I felt I have wasted a lot of times, felt useless sometimes, wanted to do something meaningful but it's limited due to my situation. although people always say hardship is nothing if you are determine to accomplish something. yes, it's true. but reality strikes, the world is real.
this post is gonna be a bit messy, here and there. cause I just type out what I thought of at the moment. well, maybe I will reorganize it afterwards.
I have always wanted to achieve things in life. the Chinese have a proverb for it "心有余而力不足" which means beyond my grasp. sometimes I just wish that a 伯乐 will appear in my life. sorry I don't know what's the English word for 伯乐. tried to google it but the translation is not appropriate. having a 伯乐, there's someone to train and guide me of what I love to do.
but yea, currently I'm not clear and not sure of what I want to do. there's a big possibilities that I might continue studying next year but in a totally different course. I don't wanna state the reason publicly, friends who are close to me, you may ask me personally.
thoughts are getting messier, I am not even good at expressing myself.
probably another post next time.
yours sincerely,
franfranfranny
Saturday, 30 November 2013
Sunday, 23 September 2012
wisdom-driven passion
I'm suppose to do revision for tomorrow's final test but here I am, updating my blog.
even though I know I shouldn't but I thought this would be worth blogging.
lately I've been doing devotion on Pastor Kevin's devotion material - 365. been reading it for 2 weeks and I must say it is my favourite one so far. I've listen to his teachings and sharing a lot of times and I really love it.
sometimes people says that things are overrated but here I am to say that the 'awesome-ness' of Pastor Kevin is really not overrated. a lot of time I find his teaching is very relevant, very real and it is something that happens in the modern days.
I'm not trying to be bias or discriminate, but at times I find speaker preaching things that are hard for me to relate. yes, things that they share are true and inspiring. but all those happened in the past. well of course it is not wrong to use the past example, but it will be more relevant if they could relate on something that happens today.
and once again, I'm not judging anyone. sometimes when I attend church service, I think the congregation are drawn and drag by the speaker. they give respond to the speaker for the sake of not embarrassing the speaker. the congregation clap hands and laugh at certain jokes just to keep the whole service not dead. of course it is not totally wrong to do so, because by doing so we are partially giving support to the speaker. but let me be clear, my point is: are you doing all these actions because you really agree with it or you just do it because it became a nature, a routine to you?
well, back to Pastor Kevin. today, through his devotion book I've learned to have wisdom-driven passion. we ought to know the reason why we want to do something and find a balance in all that we do. know that:
yours sincerely, franfranfranny
even though I know I shouldn't but I thought this would be worth blogging.
lately I've been doing devotion on Pastor Kevin's devotion material - 365. been reading it for 2 weeks and I must say it is my favourite one so far. I've listen to his teachings and sharing a lot of times and I really love it.
sometimes people says that things are overrated but here I am to say that the 'awesome-ness' of Pastor Kevin is really not overrated. a lot of time I find his teaching is very relevant, very real and it is something that happens in the modern days.
I'm not trying to be bias or discriminate, but at times I find speaker preaching things that are hard for me to relate. yes, things that they share are true and inspiring. but all those happened in the past. well of course it is not wrong to use the past example, but it will be more relevant if they could relate on something that happens today.
and once again, I'm not judging anyone. sometimes when I attend church service, I think the congregation are drawn and drag by the speaker. they give respond to the speaker for the sake of not embarrassing the speaker. the congregation clap hands and laugh at certain jokes just to keep the whole service not dead. of course it is not totally wrong to do so, because by doing so we are partially giving support to the speaker. but let me be clear, my point is: are you doing all these actions because you really agree with it or you just do it because it became a nature, a routine to you?
well, back to Pastor Kevin. today, through his devotion book I've learned to have wisdom-driven passion. we ought to know the reason why we want to do something and find a balance in all that we do. know that:
Passion + Wisdom = A mansion.
Passion - Wisdom = A hut.
yours sincerely, franfranfranny
Sunday, 9 September 2012
express update
I admit, I didn't update my blog as often as I thought I would.
am caught in the season of hectic. can't believe 3 more weeks till this crazy term come to an end.
it's been insane and still will be for the next 3 weeks.
transition has never been easy.
hopefully I survive these 3 weeks.
will be going 2nd internship next month, October.
I miss home, a lot. because I know to be home means I'm away of all the hectic-ness.
I'm tired. physically, mentally and spiritually. I'm tired of being tired. but no worries, I'm not giving up.
Don't Lose Heart!
yours sincerely, franfranfranny
am caught in the season of hectic. can't believe 3 more weeks till this crazy term come to an end.
it's been insane and still will be for the next 3 weeks.
transition has never been easy.
hopefully I survive these 3 weeks.
will be going 2nd internship next month, October.
I miss home, a lot. because I know to be home means I'm away of all the hectic-ness.
I'm tired. physically, mentally and spiritually. I'm tired of being tired. but no worries, I'm not giving up.
Don't Lose Heart!
yours sincerely, franfranfranny
Wednesday, 11 July 2012
3 months at East
it's been a long silence here.
I think most of my friends and family knew that I was back to the east for 3 months internship. it's been filled with joy and excitement. not so much of sorrow but I would say tiredness.
working in the hotel line definitely requires some stamina for the long working hours, especially working in the kitchen. during my training in the kitchen really challenge my physical strength a lot. I still remember vividly I almost pass out on the first day of my work in the kitchen. fortunately my chef saw it, otherwise I would really faint and fall. I didn't tell many people about this cause I think it's not something proud to share of, but now since the case is a past event, I don't mind telling.
eventhough now the whole internship is over, when people ask me whether I like studying or working, I still can't tell the answer. but I really enjoyed and cherish when I was in pastry kitchen, I learnt a lot there compare to other kitchen that I went. I specially wanna thank Joyce, she was somehow like my mentor when I was in pastry kitchen. she taught me a lot on skills and share the recipes to me, it was a blessing to me for having her as my so-called-mentor.
besides all these, I'm really glad I chose to go back my hometown as the place for my internship. truly, home is where the heart is. the convenienvy and comfortability at home is unbeatable. on the first day of my 3pm-11pm shift, dad actually stay up and waited me to be home. not to forget, mum always supply my wants and needs. on my off day, mum would actually bring me for some nice meal. totally appreciate that! in addition, on the day I fly back here to KL, dad came home from Keningau the night before. he woke up early morning to buy ingredients and cooked soup for me cause he knew both sis and I love to drink home-cooked soup.
on the other hand, I also get to hang out and meet up my KK peeps. they made my life filled with so much joy and laughter. I truly had a wonderful time at KK. and one more important thing is I get to eat all the food I craved for! for your info, I made a list of food that I wanted to eat before I was back to KK. all these would only happen if I'm home <3
PS: pictures coming up on my facebook.
yours sincerely, franfranfranny
I think most of my friends and family knew that I was back to the east for 3 months internship. it's been filled with joy and excitement. not so much of sorrow but I would say tiredness.
working in the hotel line definitely requires some stamina for the long working hours, especially working in the kitchen. during my training in the kitchen really challenge my physical strength a lot. I still remember vividly I almost pass out on the first day of my work in the kitchen. fortunately my chef saw it, otherwise I would really faint and fall. I didn't tell many people about this cause I think it's not something proud to share of, but now since the case is a past event, I don't mind telling.
eventhough now the whole internship is over, when people ask me whether I like studying or working, I still can't tell the answer. but I really enjoyed and cherish when I was in pastry kitchen, I learnt a lot there compare to other kitchen that I went. I specially wanna thank Joyce, she was somehow like my mentor when I was in pastry kitchen. she taught me a lot on skills and share the recipes to me, it was a blessing to me for having her as my so-called-mentor.
besides all these, I'm really glad I chose to go back my hometown as the place for my internship. truly, home is where the heart is. the convenienvy and comfortability at home is unbeatable. on the first day of my 3pm-11pm shift, dad actually stay up and waited me to be home. not to forget, mum always supply my wants and needs. on my off day, mum would actually bring me for some nice meal. totally appreciate that! in addition, on the day I fly back here to KL, dad came home from Keningau the night before. he woke up early morning to buy ingredients and cooked soup for me cause he knew both sis and I love to drink home-cooked soup.
on the other hand, I also get to hang out and meet up my KK peeps. they made my life filled with so much joy and laughter. I truly had a wonderful time at KK. and one more important thing is I get to eat all the food I craved for! for your info, I made a list of food that I wanted to eat before I was back to KK. all these would only happen if I'm home <3
PS: pictures coming up on my facebook.
yours sincerely, franfranfranny
Thursday, 22 March 2012
Day 16 of LOVE
"How can you love when you hate?"
recently, this question keep popping in my mind.
ain't you agree with me that it's not easy to be kind and show love towards the person you dislike?
well, let's ponder on this sentence. "When you dislike someone, there will be another someone out there who dislike you as well. But you have to know what is right and do it right."
Hatred is suffering because you'll constantly in a negative mood whenever you think of that someone.
Love irrationally and forgive without reason.
start love today by loving irrationally =)
yours sincerely, franfranfranny
recently, this question keep popping in my mind.
ain't you agree with me that it's not easy to be kind and show love towards the person you dislike?
well, let's ponder on this sentence. "When you dislike someone, there will be another someone out there who dislike you as well. But you have to know what is right and do it right."
Hatred is suffering because you'll constantly in a negative mood whenever you think of that someone.
Love irrationally and forgive without reason.
start love today by loving irrationally =)
yours sincerely, franfranfranny
Tuesday, 13 March 2012
Day 15 of LOVE
went church service last weekend and the speaker of the night was Rev Kevin Loo. if you have not heard about him before, I strongly encourage you to get his sermon CD and listen to his teaching and sharing. although I've been listening him to preach a lot of times on different topics, I still looking forward for his sermon if I know he's the speaker of the week. he's just naturally a good speaker and will keep you awake if you pay attention to what he says.
so the topic was 'experience CHCKL'. it was basically all about act of love and kindness towards others especially to the new comer at CIty Harvest Church. Rev Kevin pointed out that we should not just 'try' to act kind towards new comer when we try to impress them. instead, we should put in practice in our daily life. no matter at church, university or college, work place and even shopping malls, we ought to constantly show care and kindness to the people around us.
for example, if someone ask you for direction, why not say this: "I know where is that place, but I think it will be better if could lead you the way to there." I totally love this point. If anyone forces you to go one mile, go with them two miles. - Matthew 5:41
that's really a sweet and nice act of love isn't it? the next time people ask for help, do more than expected.
start love today by giving the best experience to others :)
yours sincerely, franfranfranny
so the topic was 'experience CHCKL'. it was basically all about act of love and kindness towards others especially to the new comer at CIty Harvest Church. Rev Kevin pointed out that we should not just 'try' to act kind towards new comer when we try to impress them. instead, we should put in practice in our daily life. no matter at church, university or college, work place and even shopping malls, we ought to constantly show care and kindness to the people around us.
for example, if someone ask you for direction, why not say this: "I know where is that place, but I think it will be better if could lead you the way to there." I totally love this point. If anyone forces you to go one mile, go with them two miles. - Matthew 5:41
that's really a sweet and nice act of love isn't it? the next time people ask for help, do more than expected.
start love today by giving the best experience to others :)
yours sincerely, franfranfranny
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